Are you sick of me saying every year that the New Year celebration is arbitrary and every day is technically the start of a new year and resolutions are dumb and bah humbug and get off my lawn?
*****Related: HAPPY (BELATED) NEW YEAR!!!****
Yeah, I feel like that attitude no longer serves me. Lately, I’ve been pretty cognizant of nearby negative vibes, wherever they may be, and I’ve been attempting to be present-minded enough to not give them off myself, or at least acknowledge when I do and with whomever might have been involved.
ANYWAY. It’s 2016 now! Which is a culturally-agreed-upon new start, and so if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em!… I’m making some resolutions (resolution one: stop talking in lazy clichés)!
I wasn’t going to talk about what they were because they’re pretty standard goals: more yoga, more writing, more banjo-playing. But I have a couple of big ones that I’m going to keep to myself just because sometimes I feel like talking about it distills the intention and the fire. (Sometimes those you’re explaining to don’t get it, and you have a hard time communicating what you mean, and then you’re left feeling like maybe it wasn’t a good idea in the first place).
I will tell you that my word for the year is “discipline” and I’m also focusing on “no more mediocrity,” which covers a lot of ground for me. Mediocrity in my work is definitely to be eradicated, but these past few months in California have opened my eyes up to my holding patterns and habits of settlement, i.e., things as basic as not washing my face at night (why does my skin look like shit? Because I’m wearing a full face of makeup for 20 hours, you think?), to protecting my leisure time a little *too* much (am I really about to take a nap after being awake for only 3 hours? Yes. Yes I am.). Pretty much: if I’m not happy with it in my life, I’m going to change it. Which I usually do anyway, so I’m not too worried, but sometimes being honest with oneself about what’s not working is difficult, and I know I have a few of those things that serve me in one fabulous way (weed, Tinder), but don’t in others (focus, discipline).
I will also tell you that this post has been written over the past week and a half because of the lack of discipline that is there, but whatever. We just started this. You know, maybe a lot of people fail at their rezzies because they go into January too hard, and perhaps January is meant for building the habits, setting the tempo! Maybe it’s okay that I’m just now, on Jan. 7, getting started on my new year’s resolutions. Sounds like my ole pal Rationalization is still by my side in 2016! Wheeeeeee!
Well, fuck you guys. I’ma play some banjo. No wait, I’m going to create a 2015 picture mosiac for your viewing pleasure. Yay! Standby. (SRSLY, I’ll have it up in an hour).